Needing some serious closure....please...

11 months ago

Hey, I really need some closure with my mom’s fiancee, he passed away couple years ago. He was punched and that one punch killed him and worst of all, it all happened in front of me. And last words we exchanged were hateful and mean words. I never got a chance to say how sorry I was. His name is Raymond Stephen Collier and he was born December 28th, 1983. Here’s the story… Me and the guy I was dating at the time were fighting in Stephen and my mom’s hotel room..almost getting them kicked out and they would’ve had no where else to go..I was so stupid and on drugs at the time. Yes, I know who punched him..I was there. His name is Samed Ali Shah ( my boyfriend at the times friend ) and no justice was served, he got arrested for murder but it’s like the trial just went away..? I don’t know if someone was paid off or whatever but Stephen never got justice! I was there but didn’t know what was gonna happen, Stephen fell in front of me …his head right at my feet. Samed punched Stephen one time and he fell at my feet. He died 7 minutes later due to head trauma. No one knew that one punch would’ve killed Stephen but apparently Samed had hit him so hard, it caused severe head trauma :’( it happened at a Walmart in High Point, NC. It was all over the news ..I couldn’t believe it..he was seriously gone..I blame myself and have serious guilt over this..it’s been eating me alive and ever since Stephens death …my mom got back on shooting heroin so bad that now it’s killed her ( she passed three months ago ). I need him to know how sorry I am and I didn’t know that was gonna happen cuz if I had known ...it wouldn’t have happened, I swear. I miss him SO MUCH! He was the only man I respected and treated my mother like she deserved and ontop of that..he had gotten her off heroin and I never got to thank him for that either. You see why it’s hurting me? And this happened January 18th, 2008.

11 months ago

First, I am so sorry that this happened. Second, you are not responsible for his death. The most important thing is to forgive yourself for any part you feel played into these events.

I would encourage you to connect to his spirit and recite the Ho’oponopono prayer to help you find forgiveness and closure.

Hoʻoponopono is a traditional Hawaiian practice of reconciliation and forgiveness.The word translates to “to make things right” or “cause things to move back in balance” in English.

The practice is a way to restore goodness and heal relationships with oneself, others, and ancestors.

Ho’oponopono Prayer:

I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you.

With good thoughts.

11 months ago

God sees and knows all, and he knows this moment as it is recorded in the books of life and i truly believe that all who go to him after passing, receive the truths as he does. So, you need not worry—it is received. If you must heal on this,, then it is important to pray and cry it out and let all this pain be given to the creator and knowing that there is no replacement for those special people that live on in our hearts.

Blessings.

11 months ago

hi there. i’m sorry this has happened to you.

i would suggest to write him a letter or say it verbally or in your mind. this is a form of praying. you could also pray that his soul and yours find peace. God is always listening, so if you ask for emotional healing, it will be given to you.

God bless you and take care.

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Oh my goodness. There is trauma here. It should start going away soon. That’s been my experience. Talking about it to the right people really helps so much. Take care.

11 months ago

Thank y’all!

10 months ago

Hi

Please see my video, it will calm thoughts down.

Are you in touch with your grandmother? your Father? You need to go and forgive them.

Feel free to contact

-SoulHealer